The Time I Took a Writing Class

In mid-October I decided I needed a positive outlet to release all of the thoughts racing in my mind. I put my monthly commuter pass to good use and added another Manhattan travel day to my week – 5 days for work, 1 Sunday for a Creative Writing 101 course at Gotham Writer’s workshop.

The first class was a bit awkward. Nobody spoke to one another. Our teacher had a Southern twang, a white ponytail and a hint of eccentricity. Each week we learned a new topic: OIL, non-fiction, fiction, genre, getting better; and after each class we would complete a homework assignment using concepts we learned from each topic. At the start of every Sunday, we would get a writing prompt, read our pieces aloud, and give feedback/constructive criticism. It was a lot of fun.

Since the course has ended I’ve written more short stories. I enjoyed the things i produced in class as well. I’m proud of it. I also noticed places where I can improve I switch up tenses often, I didn’t notice that was one of my habits. I also am obsessed with filler words – just, like, he, she – also i use tons of “was.” Writing comes somewhat easily to me but it really isn’t so easy. It’s all about shaping and molding sentences to make it sound attractive, to keep a reader’s attention, it’s all about making the reader like you.

I also learned about my ability to paint a picture of the world through observation. I enjoyed the comments my teacher contributed regarding my performance in the class.I found it to be a great experience all around.

To get better at a writer, you need to write. When things get negative – write, when your mind starts to wander – write, when you  feel empty inside – write, when you try and look for outside distractions to make you happy – – write!!! When you’re looking to feel loved and supported – write. Keep it moving, keep on going. Do what you’re good at.


I Cannot Deny My Love of Books

book-loverWe live in the age of information with conveniences such as e-readers and the Internet. Personally, I get overwhelmed with how much is available to us. For me there is nothing better than the feel of a real book in my hands. I adore books because they contain specific information. When you read a physical book there is no aimlessly wandering around to the next webpage, no staring at bright screens. You can’t text and read a book (you could but if you are I bet you’re not paying much attention). Books have beautiful art on the cover, they take time to be produced. They aren’t so quick, simple and easy like everything else in our world today. Reading requires an effort.

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I Want Pain: A Dark Piece

Screenshot_2016-03-31-17-44-43-2.pngI can’t shake the feeling of wanting to wrap something around my own neck. To feel pain around my throat; to feel my air supply slowly being cut off. Feeling pain is all I crave right now and I can’t explain why. I want the pain to be so unbearable that it forces hot tears out of my eyes, I want to feel them as they run down my cheeks, smearing my mascara. My nose runs. I’m sniveling all over myself. I’m panicked. I’m alone.

I don’t really want to die but that cord hanging from the ceiling was taunting me. So many bodies. So many people are crowded around me I just want to push them all out of my way. A man walks by and runs over my foot with his rolling luggage. I toss him a dirty look. It makes me so angry. As hundreds of bodies fight against each other to the escalator I slowly growl under my breath. Growling softly is all I can do at the end of the day. Then I see that wire hanging from the top of the station platform. As I make my way down the escalator I wonder if I could leap up and slip my head through the loop hanging above me. I wonder how painful it would be, if I would die instantly or if it would be slow. I wondered if anyone would even notice the young girl in the leather jacket with the blue backpack hanging above them as they race for their rush hour train.

I wonder if my life would even mean something if I left it right now. I have no man who cares for me. My family would miss me. My friends would miss me. I feel like  I am nothing, I have nothing.  I’m just another flesh vehicle trying to survive a place with no clearly defined purpose.

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Disclaimer: I would never want to harm myself. This is merely a piece written during an unhappy period that should be read as a character from a book rather than a true reflection of the blogger behind it.

Thoughts from Today’s Bike Ride: I Can No Longer Be Still

20150628_181744I stay in the same place I was born and raised. Riding my bike to the same place I’ve been going to each summer for the past three years. When Monday comes I will go to the same office job. Day after day. Week after week. Year after year.

I’m like a teenager without any friends. Sitting in the same place. Dreaming of the same things. Yet nothing new ever happens. Nothing changes. No matter how hard I try.

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Delayed Teenage Rebellion

From what I’ve learned in my 24 years of life is that if you go with the lines of authority you will go far but if you cop attitude and go against the rigid conforms of society, you won’t get very far at all. It’s a daily struggle for me to prevent myself from saying exactly what’s on my mind. I grew up in a family where none of us has a filter. I’ve since been able to control mine a little better than my grandpa and mother, but if I don’t like the way something is going or if I’m resistant to change I speak up.

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Listicle Nomination (5 Important Things To Do After A Breakup)

Good Morning Bloggers! I am honored and excited to announce that a listicle I wrote was nominated last week for a contest by The Fickle Heartbeat.

Four months ago I broke up with my boyfriend of more than a year. It was difficult to let go of him and our relationship however I soon realized if I ever wanted to be truly happy I needed to fall in love with me. Relationships can be great when you’re with the right person, not all of us are so lucky to find them right away. With the end of my relationship I’ve been focusing on myself and I’ve come to a few conclusions. I believe we should challenge ourselves every single day. We should live to our fullest potential, jump off the ledge and embrace the world. We can choose to do it with someone else or we can get out there, grab the bull by it’s horns and just do it!! Going at it alone is empowering and something we all should experience.

If you have ever been through a rough breakup and want some perspective, if you feel sad about being single or if you still need help with your healing, check out my post at:

5 Important Things to do After a Break-Up

Let’s fall in love with ourselves! Don’t be afraid to like, comment and share!! Thanks!

Liebster Award Nomination

About one week ago, I was nominated by Chibimoekko for this very fun challenge! Thank you, Chibimoekko!!

Rule 1: You must answer 11 questions given to you by the person who nominated you

Rule 2: You must list 11 random/fun facts about yourself

Rule 3: You must pick 11 nominees with under 200 followers to answer your questions. You cannot nominate the person who nominated you.

Rule 4: You cannot nominate the person who nominated you.

Rule 5: You must let the person you’ve nominated know that they’ve been nominated.


1. What is your secret shame? I have no shame. I have no filter and that doesn’t embarrass me.

2. What is your proudest moment? College graduation day. Walking up to the podium to receive my diploma on college graduation day. It was also one of the saddest moments.

3. If you could go back to one moment in your life to effect changes, what would it be? I would go back to college and join volleyball and the school paper. I would have studied abroad and after graduation instead of being depressed I would have taken a course, joined some meet up groups, networked and gotten a job in Manhattan right away instead of working at a deli and taking an easy yet unfulfilling job. Way more than a moment, lol. But no regrets. I’ve grown a lot over these past two years. You need to go through things before you can get exactly where you want to be.

4. If you could be anyone on earth, who would you be? Carrie Bradshaw.

5. If you are only allowed to eat one kind of food for the rest of your life, what would it be? Indian food. It’s my all time favorite. The spicier the better.

6. Any embarrassing monikers? Treeny Weenie.

7. What’s your weirdest fantasy? I don’t think its weird but some people may. I want to be barefoot take a ride on an elephant.

8. What did you do to your first crush? I said hello.

9. When did you lose your mind? Someplace before my self-realization.

10. Why did you start blogging? I wanted to be forced to write more. To be able to reach out to an audience and see how receptive my writing could be.

11. How do you feel if you don’t do anything for an entire day? I’m the type of person who’s always busy and on the go. On days were I choose not to do anything, it depends. Sometimes I feel relaxed, other times I feel absolutely restless.

Fun Facts

1. I hate when people cut up their spaghetti. Twirl girl. Twirl.

2. Guilty pleasure: The Real Housewives Franchise, mainly Beverly Hills, the OC, and Atlanta.

3. Major cat person. I love em to death.

4. I feel most at home when I’m next to the bay or on a beach. The closer to water I am the more connected I feel to myself and the universe.

5. I love both tea and coffee but if I had to pick one to drink for the rest of my life I’d choose tea.

6. I have a weakness for men who are mentally and physically strong, creative, insightful and intelligent. Kind of like me, lol.

7. Yoga is my religion. Someday I’d like to become an instructor.

8. I wrote a 100 page manuscript in 30 days last November and the experience was both grueling and gratifying.

9. For years I was dying my hair red or dark brown and straightening it until it was so thin it looked like it would snap off. These days I’ve stopped dying it. My hair is naturally really curly and up until recently I never knew that.

10. I once got a full body massage on my birthday. Instead of feeling relaxed I felt super nauseous.

11. I’ve experienced all of New York to the absolute fullest: going to school upstate, growing up on Long Island and spending weekends at my family’s place in NYC.

Questions for Nominees

  1. If you could travel anywhere in the world where would it be?
  2. Why did you choose the place in question 1?
  3. What is your idea of the perfect day?
  4. Think of one thing on your bucket list. What is it?
  5. If you could be any character in any book or movie which would you be?
  6. Can you tell your favorite joke?
  7. What is something you’ve always wanted to do but haven’t gotten around to because you feel too afraid?
  8. What do you wish to contribute to society/ what have you contributed to society?
  9. Think of the person who is closest to you. What makes you connect so well with this person?
  10. Describe a time you felt really angry. Now that you’re out of that moment how do you feel about the situation?
  11. What attracts you to your current partner or crush?